Flash back, I have been a happy and relax life for the passed few years meanwhile I feel regret that I’ve been wasting time, choosing wrong things, making wrong decisions. I have set my goal, my target, whether it’s going to achieve anot, I’ll try my best. Strive for my Master instead of my work, earn money to survive. Have to stand for 2 more years, hope everything is on plan.
I admitted that I have been through a boring life for 1 whole year, maybe because of working that causing my life dull ? Or I didn’t get any entertainment from others ? Im so envy that seeing some of my friends that they have gone through some chanllenging, happy moments, relax trip, celebration with their loves one.
Im so stress for everything, include the relationship, working, family issues, colleage politicians… like all the burdens are reliance on my shoulder. I couldn’t even lend other’s shoulder on this, i really can’t stand it anymore.
I feel so depress, hopeless, dullness, lonely… sometimes I just think of I gotta run out from here go travel alone, leaves all the stress and problem behind. But I know it just can’t be.
No one understand me, everyone keep on throw out the problem without the solution and forcing me to solve it. Im just a simple women that need a shoulder to lend, need someone to support, someone who can console me. Not just keep on complaining, brings out all the problems, blaming all those stuff. Im not a tough guy, even if I am…. I have a limitation and I have been tired for all these.
Sometimes, those things just follow a plan to work on it, It will be so boring. Because there’s no unexpectable suprise, happy moment. All i do is for all the people to satisfy them, but who will do for me ? What I want ? What I need the most ? Guess no one knows, just know simply buy some stuff or directly ask what u want, even don’t willing to pay attention. Some special days just pass through, I feel so regret that I have done nothing and receive nothing. Or even I have bored with this, something that has passed means it never come back. Im afraid i continuous keeping these things inside my heart, feeling the same old way, doesnt want to do something, I will be giving up and run away. Because I feel im being a receive orders, command, no voice out, follow the plan and a blur’s life…
Wau, it’s been quite a while that i didn’t post anything in my blog :p Time pass really fast, I’ve back from Greece about 1 month plus and I try to upload the photos in here but due to the pic’s size problem, Im thinking of is time for me to change a new theme. New year is coming mah so the blog’s theme also should be new what 
It’s can’t believe that I had been working 1 year + since I was graduated from my university. And I have gone through all the tough incidents that happened during my working life, but I tell you, these tough stuff will never end… Sigh, what to do, life is like that, get education, obtain a good cert, get a good job, earn more money.. that is ! Luckily, god give us a hint, althought it’s not yet showing a bright future, but at least I got my target to aim for this coming year :p
I know it will be more tougher than I thought, I know it might be not sucess, But all I got to do is believe and determination. This is the only way out, the only way I can find my respect and no longer stay in a political, full of rumors’s company. Got target to aim, whatever I do will be meaningful. Because im seeing most of the people, they’re bored – feel numb – imune to their working environment. They can’t differentiate what’s stupid, what’s clever, they don’t what’s going wrong outside the world, they’re just hiding themselves all the way in their workplace. It’s so horrible, I don’t wish to be like them ! Even when I get 50 or 60 that time, I also doesn’t want to be like them.
Since nowadays, those people doesn’t appreciate what we’ve done for them, obtain a high education and get into the company, they still using their own working experience to criticize us. What choice we have ? Feel no respect ? Pretend invisible ? Being Peace ? This is not me. I didn’t admit that im clever, high EQ or even IQ, im not a genius, I don’t have much experience. But what I know is Im better than you all, Im gain more knowledge from you all, Im high education.
Im just need to wait, wait till 2011 to come. I’ll do something, I’ll target something that I’ll never think before in my whole 23 years’s life. If my wishes come true, that’s my brighter future coming through….
Packing stuff now, hope didn’t left anything behind….
Tomorrow morning heading to Greece… 
So happy and excited now, finally both of us can travel oversea… just only both of us :p
When is gone, means really gone…
NO turning back…
When that times come….
I will say NO
It’s over… done
I really don’t want to think bout this, one and once it’s dissapointing, I wish it desperately but I know it wasn’t my luck to have it. Every single day, im not happy bout this. Going to give up everything, burden is getting more and more heavy even can’t breath, at the end what did I get ? A word of sigh ? Hopeless….
Convince myself ? Why everytime until this moment have to take it away ? Guess… I shouldn’t think too much, shouldn’t talk too much, shouldn’t voice out what in my mind. Because it’s useless, you know it won’t work. Sometimes.. You don’t want do it at the moment, when you want do it that time is already late. Regret or not have to think by yourself. Is really fed up, my feel is getting away…..
Ya, I admit I have very very bad luck recently….
At work, Suddenly lot of tasks are under my name even irrelevant my job scope also want me to do. Big bosses assigned job can’t reject it, what should I do ? Can’t say NO !!! Ok la, I done my job already. Suddenly came out some stupid new auditors said I didn’t do well and I should look after the training courses for the prod floor. Hello ?? This job had assign to training department to train them if not what for need training dept ? I go give training and test to them lor, me myself issues badge to them lar no need training dept do lar =.=” Fuck him and somemore he go sent email cc all big bosses in the loop. Tomorrow have to screw him up. !
At home, after I came back from work having dinner that time, I just remind that I left my hp in my office =.=” Ya, keep on repeat the same mistakes I had made. Then my house suddenly the shower is not functioning, no water come out, thought that it didn’t supply water but others paip had only the shower not functioning, I have to wait till saturday call up ppl come and fix it. And last my car is bang in my house =(
Sigh….. I don’t want to say much, is so damn giving up. Many bad stuff happened in just one day, my emo really can’t handle it, don’t know what to do. Anythings sad, go back work force to smile again since I need to faced those ppl.
Supposingly this weekend Im gonna do my facial, plan to book flight and all those personal stuff…. Now, Sat have to go fix my car and call up the ppl to fix my shower. Im gonna screw up by my dad ! Yaaa.. what so ever, it did happened, next time i before go back i should check whether my hp is with me and carefully parking…..
So tired of all these stuff, every single day have to work and work, repeat the same old stuff =.= Every week just only have 2 days to be rest, Argggg !! I wish could have more public holidays, at least i can sit at home and do nothing also satisfy !
So bored, tomorrow gotta go to work. Have to turn on the monday blues mood… duhhhhh !
I shouldn’t say it…
I shouldn’t talk too much….
Suppose to shut the mouth…..
Better than expose a lot……
Ever, ever place in the heart
Yes ! Finally we have decided to choose a place to travel, GREECE ! yeah.. sounds nice. Well, at first thought we decided going to Japan and we did exchange the japanese yen, but suddenly we think of our A/L leaves not enough and also timing problem, so giving up.. =.= But for sure we still need to travel, as per promise at least once in a year travel to overseas. :p
Last year we did went to south africa, this year we going to Greece, Athens, just so nice =) Guess around october we going there cause Nov winter almost coming dy. Now busying searching hotel, planning the schedule, next week going to book the flight So happy, finally both of us can travel oversea..
” I have enough with it ! ” How many times did I repeat this phrase ? Ya, many times until is uncountable. I have enough to work, sick of seeing those people, back home also listen to those negative stuff. I’m done with it ! That’s the reason which cause me loose lot of hair ! @~@
Am I not enough serious? At my work area im admit myself treat seriously for my job task, what for you expect ? Thought im just having a playful mind set ? Trying to critisize me ? Blaming that im not doing well, so you can show how good you are ? If like that then go ahead, replace me, handle my job. Im guarentee, once you sit infront of my pc start typing then you’ll know you’re wrong ! One day, just one day would come, I would shout out loudly like what I did before last time ” IM QUIT !! ” and this word hope doesn’t repeat the same after this.
Serious, ya when im serious you said im too serious, when i was trying to make jokes with you, you use ur angry expression to reply me back. What you expect ? what do you want from me ? Fine ! you want to be angry is your own business. Is you are the 1 who do wrong expression. !
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